Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Giving It Away

It was over 4 1/2 years ago that my life took on one of it's changes of direction. I had recently come out of a loveless marriage of 4 years. My two oldest children were out of my home. It was just me and my little man Brian who was about 12 years old at the time and our time together was well spent. We enjoyed our day to day with no crazy drama or outside influence.  We were active in his baseball activities.  I cannot think of another time during my life when it was any more peaceful and filled with so much contentment. Then I heard this song and began praying. I prayed that my life would be used for whatever was necessary and in a way that was of service to God, Creation, the Universe, whatever you choose to call it. The words resignated in my soul. I cannot explain how they just took me over in a way that til this day is still unexplainable. I was just so deeply grateful for all the grace and love that I had received throughout my life. I had taken some time to look back over my days on earth and even with all the circumstances I had to overcome, I knew I was blessed. There were so many different people that were placed in my path to assist me in building a solid foundation within me. And there I was standing tall in the absolute knowledge of knowing that I was a child of the most high and I was loved from the depths of grace to the highest point of  abundance. Oh how whole I felt. How completely full I was. I continued to pray this song. And then I got the call...